I am a: Quirky sysadmin. Geek. Gamer. Comic fangirl. My little space, my home on the interwebs. I blog about personal stuffs, work, various coding projects, and anything else I feel like.

Once upon a time I fell in love with a man who said he was divorced. Turns out he wasn’t divorced, just separated. We talked about the future. My dumb ass waited on him, and then married him. Then we divorced. It nearly destroyed me completely. I swore never again. Then I met another man. […]

The year of suck is almost over. Here’s to hoping next year is better! I accepted a job offer, now waiting for the background check and all pre-employment stuff to clear. I spent yesterday getting my drug test done. It’s been a long time since I’ve had to do any of this. Driving back home, […]

This decade is full of teh suck. Like a giant swirling vortex of it. Maybe it’s my mood? No, pretty sure everything sucks right now. Thanksgiving was a let down on so many levels, but honestly it doesn’t matter anymore. I had originally planned to go out of town and treat myself. I put my […]

Spending the day recovering. I had actually started a piece but it’s not finished, and at this point I’m not sure I even want to. Re-posting this instead: The anniversary of September 11th, 2001 is upon us once again. For years I was re-posting the same thing over and over; just going through the motions, […]

The last 18 hours has been a night of many firsts. Not necessarily Bucket List items. More like the “Have You Ever…?” List kind of things. It’s a long story, but summary is: I had a serious reaction to a medication, which triggered the most severe panic attack I’ve ever experienced, which of course then […]

There was a conversation at work this week about love and those who shape the person we are. Someone argued that one special love shapes you like no one else. Someone else argued that you can love deeply multiple times, and they all shape you. I posited to be of the latter. Someone laughed and […]